Somehow, in chaos of the school year, blogging 'once a week, at least' has turned into blogging once per month. That means I start again for my bucket list goal. Here goes...

I'm feeling a bit sad these days. We have been trying to get pregnant for going on 5 months now and the disappointment is starting to ware on me. I know that this span of time might seem laughable to some, but we were able to get it on the first try with Caelan and fertility issues are a HUGE fear of mine. (Many women with Celiac Disease have difficulty with fertility.) My heart breaks for all of the women out there who battle fertility issues for years on end or who have trouble maintaining a pregnancy. I cannot even fathom the heartache. We are going to stop actively 'trying' for a while, get my health, etc. in a good place and pick back up again in a few months. We'll see what God has planned.

I just realized that I have been keeping this blog for over a year now... I just recalled the picture I posted of Caelan in his little pumpkin costume last Halloween. So adorable. This year was much more difficult... getting a 16 month old to hold still for much of anything is nearly impossible. Needless to stay, the eyeliner beard and mustache for this year's pirate costume were a challenge! Regardless, you were the cutest little pirate ever to walk the plank.

There is much to write about but little energy to spare at the moment. My book and my bed are looking very inviting and I think I should give in. It has been a long week.

I really will put forth some effort to pick up my entries again. The realization that I have been doing this as long as I have will be motivation enough! I feel so proud! I don't think that any of the journals I have attempted in the past have lasted longer than a few months, at best.

I guess I finally have something worth writing about, hey?

Today, and always, I am thankful for my family. My desire for and failure to create another child has made me so, so appreciative of my Caelan. Where would I be without you? I love you so much, kiddo. You and daddy are my everything.